4,5 “hardest read ever” stars
SPOILER FREE review (except for book first so if you haven’t read the Life The Mattered yet, pass your way)
This was the hardest read ever , not only because the characters are suffering but also because it has major personal triggers that usually would have me DNF the book. And I still don’t know how jewel did it but she kept me in her clutch and I simply could not stop reading.
I was tired, went to bed and …woke up at 4 AM with Roe, Evie, Lila and Graham’s story in my head, a huge need to know what would happen and so …I resumed reading!
Now going on 4 hours sleep, I am in need of coffe and concealer to hid the bags under my eyes. Feel free to send me a package 😊
As I promise this would be spoiler free, I’ll talk about what this book made me feel and also of kind of general topics in the books without going into details.
By the end of book one, we knew that Roe was linked to Lila after saving her life. He could feel her pain and that’s how he got addicted on pain killers and nearly lost Evie.
In this sequel, Roe will feel Lila a lot. They share what seems like an unbreakable bond and it will truly complicated things. Roe and Evie’s life will be tested beyond anything I could have imagined and I HURT for them! Because if there was ever a perfect couple it was them! But Evie would never go down without a fight! Yet sometimes you may fight all you might, it’s not always enough so… what would happen?
“With half of my clothes discarded on the porch’s wood floor and Ronin’s jeans and briefs slid partway down his thighs, we fucked. We laid down our weapons. We made love. And I knew in that moment that it wasn’t just Franz and Anya that I would protect with my life. It was Ronin too. He didn’t share my DNA, but he shared my soul. I would fight for him. And he would fight for me. There would be truths. There would be lies. Never perfect—always forever.”
We already saw in book one that Roe was not comfortable with Graham as in, he noticed the way Graham looked at his wife. But like Evie, Roe is valuing his marriage above anything else and he is ready! Call it male competition or anything Roe knew what was important in his life and what he had to protect.
“I liked being the best. Maybe not the best golfer. Maybe not the best bank account balance. Maybe not the best at spewing off baseball stats. But the best husband would do … that and best skier, best lumberjack, best dad, and best lover. Fuck you, Porter … this woman is mine.”
And Roe was such a worthy and noble hero. Seeing them struggle and suffer had me shedding tears more often than not.
What was also striking was the tension. I realized after finishing this story that my neck, shoulders and back were knotted painfully tight. Because slowly but surely, I expected the worse. Something would happen. I didn’t know why but I knew it would be ugly. And the anticipation is the worst!!! I also hate when books are packed with angst and Jewel threw me through hell here!
Here are some of the thoughts I noted while reading:
“This is a horrible situation”
“Graham is despicable”
“Talk about whiplash!”
“I understand depression, how it can strangle you and snuff all the light of your family as well”.
“This is just an impossible situation. Being trapped by circumstances.”
“Why can’t you tell her? Don’t you see you are running into a wall? I want to scream and stop reading as I can’t stand the tension and the suspense!!”
As you see, many heated and conflicted emotions. I wanted to read for Evie and Roe. For Lila too. I got angst, sleep deprivation, tears, rage, sadness, hope, fear…. Jewel E Ann wrote a story that clearly brought me through the whole emotional spectrum. A story very, very hard to read because you FEEL for the characters and suffer alongside them but so worth it!
Jewel, you still owe me coffee and concealer!
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Thanks for reading!